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..not really sure what happened to me this morning... take away myself and put in a grump..not feeling very well...seemingly emtional..and unable to run girl
..im not even being flippant!!!
..the poor boy hasnt even done anything wrong yet i was super grumpy and more so because i listened to something someone else had said to me which made me feel insecure..so then i texted to explain...yeah good one... he would have loved that! any other shovels to dig the hole any bigger while im there??????
..so went for a run... ummmmmm if you could call i that.. i think i would prefer to call it 'an attempt at running and not one that you would call successful'
..was supposed to do 5x1.25km in 5:45min(so 4:36min/km pace) this should not be too hard a set for me as last week i did 20mins at 4:35!!!!
went to albert park...theres markers maybe evry 500m..went to start warm up jog...got 250m along at 6km pace and was struggling and had to walk..bit weird... tried again..same thing...oh well i thought ill go to the tan i just dont want to run here..theres no .25km markers anyway
..so toodled off to the tan 9am and put my water bottle where it needed to be and went to take off on the first rep...got about 40m into it and stopped and walked..so decided to cut my reps tol 750m bc OBVIOUSLY 1.25km wasnt happening..so i walked to 750m away to try and collect myself(now aiming for 3:27min)
rep 1 750. 3:20
rep2 750m 3:27 and just about keeled over... i felt terrible..so went to the toilet gathered myelf and set off for the third..was really struggling so cut it to 500m
500m 2:14 (aim for 2:18) deperately wanted to stop as feel awful
500m 2:18 there was some dry retching at this stage...eeeyuk wasnt sure if i could manage another...nearly stopped at 250m(yes thats how bad it was)
500m 2:19 and it was torturous... so the session was MUCH shorter but i managed(dont quite know how) to do 5 reps... the legs were tired..but the body felt sick or run down but certinly not with it
..couldnt manage anything more than a walk cool down
..got in car and was really struggling to even drive home..feeling a bit faint and listless..and even contemplated pulling over.. i was in that...almost despair sighing that is close tears..it was very weird..and i thought i was gonna vomit..(i was a bit worried i had a touch of the gastro that sammi had- she had to go to hospital the other night)..got home climbed into bed..and im pretty sure i had a fever..i think i was a bit delirious

..now if you dont like reading dreams skip over this bit...
i crashed hte cookie monster when someone stopped in front of me in a merging lane..and then the car rolled and i couldnt get my bearings and eventually just sagged out of the car looking at all my big lumps and was hurt quite a bit... and then i was thinking to myself..geee i hope this is a dream..and then i was looking at the cookie monster again..going damn its not a dream.. and then more weird stuff...and me in a cab at the end going im never driving again..and also how on earth do i explain to my insurance company that ive written off ANOTHER car :( and then my friend was also being VERY mean to me in that dream..
...ummmmmm how happy was i when eventually i woke up and realised this was a dream...ummmmmm very... and also the unwell-ness seems to have passed.. it was very very odd ..i really do think i had a fever.... and now i feel bad about being such a grumpybum this morn
..oh well at least im lucid again now...lol