..what is with this obsession with time

as a runner we know acutely the difference between 0.2 of a second if it means we missed our pb//its quite funny really.... when youre teaching you want 45 minutes to fly by..at the end of a 10km and you look at your watch(yes coach stu i know ishouldnt be looking at watches at the end!!) and you want the seconds to tick away more and more slowly....lol
..well tonight i chose(yes CHOSE) to enter arace where they only had one race for the women which mean that im running against gals who run 2:15 in the 800m whereas my RPB is 2.42(stu in his defence st had warned me of this and did ask if i still wanted to enter)the second last gal had an RPB of 2:30 so i was a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong way behind..and trying very hard to suck up my sooky-la-la-ness... i dint quite manage it- i was thinking about ALL kinds of scenarios to get me out of running..... and ummmmmmmmmm if anyone had seen the look i fired at stu when i was on the start line......ummmmmm it wasnt very nice(not sure if he noticed...but his athlete scott did say he saw it...lol.. yes yes ..we all know i blam others.... lets face it..NOONE wants to come last by a MILE..but i did want a pb..
so asked stu my plan which was 78/80 but then he said- i would go too fast in the first lap..(he such a blooming know it ALL!!!!! i went out a bit hard...75ish seconds...couldnt maintain(and really noticed the wind in the back straight) but did come home pretty hard but was apaprently making a teensy bit of ground on the girl in front... i didnt even hit stop on my stopwatch..so it was lucky tony(toger boy) came up and showed me my time(and stu 2) so 2:38.6.(official) wa ssooooooo happy with this.... a MASSIVE pb... close to 4 seconds(3.8) and yes stu was happy but apparently a 78/80 2.38 is better than a 75/83 2:38..and i know pacing wise it is... it also means my 82/80 of the other day in 800m terms is a terrible race... it is soooo intricate this racing thing
..i love to race.. but it doesnt seem that many other females do..ONE RACE..seriously ...4 mens races.... maybe if people see that slower(me) runners run-then they can come run too

..i was sooo happy i even called my mother(when i used to be a real runner as a kid-she was part of it..so i called her..adn she was very excited(we dont talk much-mainly cos she's ummmm how to put nicely...ummm crazy-not in the good fun sense like me...but in the emotionally stunted crazy!!!!!) anyway...lotsa KUDOS for me..and i didnt have to listen to all teh crap she usually gives me... i think she may have even teared up at one stage..which i ignored cos seriously...dont let her get started!!!!
..anyway im having a wine and celebrating....
the whole reason i went back to runing was to beat my 2.34 800m time as a 10 year old!!!(when i was actually a decent runner) it now seems almost within grasp for next year(yeah doesnt make me decent now-but adequate...lol)
..happy little jojo.mwah ,mwah!!!!