..im such a baby
..i woke up this morning...called my sister in the US(who i havent spoken to in ages-i call at least 3 times a week...and IF i get an answer its usually my bro in law cos jules is at work) so was happy when she answered- ali jumped on and yelled happy easter at me and zozo said something... i got off the phone and had a bit of a cry :( easter sunday is a day i would always spend with my sister and the kids..and without her being here..i didnt see any of my other family either-when my sister was away last time..i had to force my brother to see me on xmas!!!!theyre just hopeless thats all :(
..anyway so was feeling a bit lonely and depressed... so i went shopping with my friend...ummmmm apparently easter sunday NI SHOPS are open...huh????? not even my local COLES.... bummer..anyway hanging around at my friends house and i asked if he wanted company while he babysat tonight.... he didnt mean anything by it-but a comment of 'get a life' or something close to it ..kinda upset me...the thing is i really am missing what was previously a big part of my life...there is a WHOPPING GREAT BIG HOLE IN IT...and then when i left i cried again(not about him...just about my sister/kids) missing them dreadfully at the moment(i did used to see them twice a week :( - and most of my friends are away at the moment
..i think im also a little emotional anyway..ill know in the next few days
so running wise..... my back is atrocious at the moment(im not being a sooky la-la either) i got stu to tape it yesterday so therefore it was an hour water run..and i went too hard too early and at then end of the hour my arms were wobbly bits of jelly
i have made a decision about the back- i AM going to go back to the sports doc... after a year..im still having a LOT of back pain really quite regularly..squash isnt even on the horizon :(
..i think it might be time to get that injection into the back... i was feeling quite depressed about the back last night when i could barely bend over... and constant pain is kinda exhausting.. i forget what its like when it goes away for a day..lol... how on earth did i cope when i first hurt my back... oh thats right ....wine!!!!! hmmm maybe thats what i should have
..and im a bit teary even writing this... im such a baby-can somebody please slap me...lol
5 comments:
Don't put yourself down, you are not being a baby. Obviously you're missing your sister & her kids big time, and that really hits you hard at times like Easter. Also, your back wouldn't be helping your state of mind. So, don't feel bad about having a cry, it helps to let your emotions out usually!
So, no slap from me, sending an electronic hug () instead!
thanks honey... but that would probably make me cry...cos im such a big freaking BABY!!!!
Oh Jo, you sound so down! Wish I could come over and give you a hug.
We can have a good girly gossip on Friday night :0)
nah, you don't sound like a baby to me, I felt the very exact same way for the same reasons :(
You are not the only one being caught out with shops on easter sunday! I rocked up to get ingredients for a chicken and mushroom risotto and consequently came home empty handed lol I don't remember shops being closed on easter sunday, how rude!
Naaaa, I know how you feel, I have had such a week of highs and have now been on the brink of bawling for the last 24 hours, didn't race this morning because I felt so low I knew that if I had a crap one it would make me feel even worse :-(
Why do our families have to move away from us?
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