OMG-someone call an exorcist

..yep because somebody calm, rational and in control took over me today-
all day today i um-ed and aah-ed over whether to do a water run or run at the track

-right decision- run in the water- i know karen is keen for that, racing saturday, and back still sore, and calves VERY sore after yesterdays massage and needling. warm up 7mins -ish(someone forgot to take a watch.derr fred) and my eyesight is NOT good enough to see the clock(i had to ask a 70 year old for the time-how embarassing...lol-he's gone the clockj is just over there love(and then read out the time!!!hehe i SUCK)(i can see the minute clock(just not the real time clock) though so it was good for reps) then 3x 4x30s efforts(and i worked VERY hard-got heart right up) 4min recovery..im calling it 6kms as i ran constantly for 35 mins..and feeling quite pleased with self.rare for me to make the good decision :)

-wanted decision-run at the track-its only an easy session, some speed is nice, ill just take some anti inflamms(yep that did actually go through my mind!!)
..anyway somehow i managed to make the right decision and it turned out to be SUPER right, cos the weather turned to shite and i would have had to train in the rain, which woulda meant spikes(which i had decided against due to calves) miss jo smiles SMUGLY, i cant believe i actually made a RIGHT decision!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yay me!
..and i tried oh so hard NOT to go shopping today-and i succeeded, but i wont get carried away, my healthy eating wasnt quite so good when i made a meat lovers pizza(salami/ham/bacon) and vegies-but yes delish and it wasnt as bad as if i went OUT like i was going to when i sat in my car and had THAT stern conversation with myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and got out of the car

OK
okerly dokerly-to running-YAY- i set myself 2 goals this season- sub 45 for sandown(smashed it :) ) and to beat my Tan relay time. Well goal 2 comes into effect this weekend-and whilst my training(due to masters) has veered significantly away from cross country racing) i am feeling very fit and i am getting some speed back-yes my endurance may have diminished, but the plan is go hardish up anderson and PUSH over the crest into the downhill bit and hit that stupid sub 17- yes i am somewhat obsessive(i know that i said it a day or two ago) Stu always says i OVER analyse the CRAP out of everything, but thats how i am so there! i think that is followed up with a plthththththht LOL
and im sorry about all the whining yesterday- i was feeling sooooo sorry for myself.i get like that sometimes cos its a lifelong thing which is super depressing :( (and sometimes it just hurts so damn much!and i JUST want to be normal and have pain sometimes!!!!!! for short periods!!!!) and i think its unfair but you know what- its not unfair, i have a great life,great job, perfect boyfriend, great house, so i am A LUCKY LUCKY PERSON,i just have to manage this one LITTLE? thing and not be such a sooky la-la! so there!!
so plthththththt TO ME and my self indulgence of yesterday(but yes it may well occur again)
have a good nite chicos and chicolettes xox