...uh oh...i can be a LITTLE teensy bit annoying....lol

okey dokey..so i can be the TEENSIEST TEENSIEST bit annoying...lol...shush stu
..am in a VERY VERY good mood...just had a great appt with the sports doc-who'd a THUNK it
... she was extremely pleased with me- pat on the head for jojo
... i was able to bnd and everything... she was like WOW-thats a huge improvement... and NO DRY NEEDLING...i was kinda stressed cos that kinda hurt like hell last time...and im pretty TUFF you know ;)
..she did also say -yeah your back was pretty trashed the last time i saw you
..she did also state the importance for not getting carried away etc etc(and yes i listened-transferred all this info to stu already re speed work and haveing a longer break after a couple of reps-very important so i maintain strong core)
..so i told her that yes i had been doing speed work(which was advised against)- and then i told her how i had rationalised out racing the tan(my initial appt had been for after the race if it hadnt been moved, then she would never have tolld me not to!) she laughed and said she liked my rationalisation...how cool!!! lots of chit chat today
..she also said she had sussed out my personality and spoke accordingly to me..ie i was still going to run- but had to restrict some things and i needed to REALISE it would TAKE longer to be take effect and i wasnt as strong as i thought and was still building(i made lots of suggestions for changes and there was a bit of WHOA- lets not change from where we are-still no hills-keep the strapping for now)...and she was quite clear on this..i need to remember im not going to get better or EVER be cured.... but ..and wait for it this is the BEST BEST BESTEST bit ever
...i was saying my pain was tolerable now...no panadeine for brekky...maybe a couple hours pain per day(sooooo much better than previous-you have no idea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)im pretty happy how it is
..and shes like there will always be some underlying pain bt i would like you to be pretty much pain free... and know how to realise when it is ont he verge of flaring and what to do

OMG i cant even BEGIN to imagine a life like that! i was practically bouncing off the walls... i was prepared to be happy with only3 days of pain(less than half the time)i was already pretty happy...imagine just having a close to normal life!!!!!!!!!!!
...AND THEN THE SNEAKY THOUGHTS BEGUN!
maybe squash IS a chance after all
.maybe i will get to do long jump..
maybe..plus a million more previously retired thoughts..but trying VEY hard(not succeeding) to get carried away(i wont do anything silly though b4 you say dont...)
..MAYBE I COULD BE (ALMOST) LIKE A NORMAL PERSON..yay
..how will stu put up with me-if im consistently in a good-(read maybe hyper)mood..lol.. just cracking myself up..he musta rolled his eyes about 150 times tonight at me