...not too bad ..considering :(

Em, in particular knows how much i hate that phrase that i have just used in the title... the considering makes it sound like an excuse... but i think something i have to realise is that i have very high expectations of myself
///i haven't really acknowledged that its only been since May 9 that i was given the go ahead to start running again which is only a month ..and in all likelihood... what my body had to go through and try to recover from probably put my body under considerable stress.. so ITS probably not a surprise that IM NOT running as fast as i used to be able to ...lol.... but i do want to!!!!!!

anyway today was a handicap coburg race at heidelberg park on the dirt track(which is not a fast surface and most of the people ran slower km ratings than sandown which put mine into perspective as mine was actually faster)
anyway i started at 13:44 and jeremy started at 31 and CAUGHT me and passed me..what a gun!!!! anyway racing handicap is BIZARRO... no one to help pull you along...cos you peg someone back and then have to push...there is no settling like in a race where theres often someone racing the pace you want.... it WAS HARD HARD HARD.. i was feeling SHITE at about 3kms...lol..that wasnt a good sign.... in all seriousness too!im really not fit enough to run anything further than 5km.. anyway turn around at 4kms 19:08 and then i finish in 38:37 or 38:27 not quite sure.... anyway it means i ran 4:48min/kms which im pretty happy about..cos it was NOT a fast surface... i was scooting along(and 4:48 is not ridiculously fast(well it didnt used to be)) but it felt fast(i had NO faster)
..errr the last 4 kms was a slog and a half...as i said there was not any fitness
..lol and when i rang my coach..im like ..when will i be fit... an exasperated..JO not for another 4-8weeks..and something whiny from me i think followed by a line along the lines of ...suck it up ...lol that exactly what i need a coach for...to put it back into perspective for me
..so i guess.... considering ...(eeeeuuuugghghghgh) where im at...i ran pretty well

supposed to be writing reports...ummmm havent done any.... and meeting a friend for dinner..oops somebody needs to smack me
..long run either tomorrow or monday..but monday will muck up my other training on tues but would mean i had someone to run with
em,jay? where are you running tomorrow
blood tests this morning..i arrived at 7.55 am and i was 16th ..yes 16TH in the queue.holy guacamole batman!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

..still stressing about the house thing... anyone wanna move out with a crazy runner chick... lol