..it only takes one person to mention something and i may think on and off about it(until i come up with a satisfactory answer for myself) for days, weeks, sometimes months
-the last little stewpot, happens to be the question as to whether i like running or not and how it appears sometimes on my blog that i do not... yes i know i talked about it yesterday, but i have a NEW perspective today..lol
todays thought process-(and yes stu you give me program and i can choose to follow or not- this is not a reflection on you in any shape or form-you are a great coach-ive pb'd every winter race bar one) its more an indictment on how i view things... and im a little.... well..errrr..ummmmm......errrrrr .....make up your own mind
... my program is a 6 day program... i never make 6 days...work commitments and other things get in the way...barring sickness or parent teacher things, i train regularly 5 days a week. if i dont make 6(from my program) i feel like i have failed and am therefore negatively disposed to my week of running... (and i feel like quite a dedicated runner-particularly for a PLEB who isnt actually VERY good!!!!!)i dont run anywhere near the amount of kms other runners make(ave about 30-35kms) (i honestly dont have any more time i can give-work is f-ing crazy)
I know its really how I am looking at things... i feel like i fail EVERY week to meet what i should do.... i dont know if i need a 5 day program-with a session that is preferred but not essential-im SUCH a goody two shoes that i feel terrible if i dont fulfil- stu has said to me numerous times not to stress over it but i do
when do i feel good about running?????-when i race, because all season i have run extremely well... a few of the quality training sets, and the sunday runs when i run with groups. so dont think i dont love it, i love parts of it but i have gone in a fairly short period of 2 years of being a 2x week training + 1 racing(+ a few squash games) to 5 time running training and thats still not enough :(
oh yeah tonight set was 8x400s, windy and also going to have to do last 4 by myself so got changed to 4x400,4x300 approx 85ish sec... from the get-go i knew it wasnt pretty(yep coming up to that time of the month-always a bad training session a few days before) 85,87,86,85...OMG these hurt then 300s 60,62,62,63 all with 90s recovery(which felt like 30seconds) so i ran ok
anyway on another note, a lovely dinner with my lad, who i s'pose i like ;)