..sigh why do people over complicate things

warning dont read further if you dont want to hear about my boy issues..
life is supposed to be cruisey.. it really is...
..why cant people just let things be nice and easy and not try to complicate things

..my ex was texting me last night..dont worry i was a good girl.. i have sworn myself off him(finally after 15 years)but im trying to work out if i can be friends with him.. i still have feelings for him( BUT then i probably always will...only person ive ever trusted with my emotions)i really like him as a person,hes funny and basically just heckles me..im a girl that loves BANTER... was quite funny..
my casual london guy(obviously very casual only comes to aus once or twice a year) also sent me some amusing messages last night.. he just cracks me up..hes the complete opposite of guys that i usually go for.. he is so rude and lewd.. and he is the BIGGEST floozy of all time..but then he has redeeming features as he is actually one of the smartest people i know... its such a pity he lives in england

..and someone else was annoying me a little during the week..why do guys automatically assume that they are the most date-able people on earth.. and that all girls must be just dying to go out with them.. seriously.. now theres a conversation i have to have which is annoying.. because im sick of being told that they dont want to go out with me...derrrr im not an idiot .. and i have never once said that i even wanted to... i mean lovely guy :) i do like him but im still dealing with the other Ex issues at the moment..and trust me thats ENOUGH for my poor little head to cope with... i only stopped seeing him 3 weeks before casual supposed to be all cruisey guy.. i think i made my point earlier today but we will see

Achilles-NOOOOOOOOOO good. i rang em up today cos im contemplating running the spring into shape..if anyone sees me there..maybe slap me..it was hurting even walking today..although took some anti inflamms and majorly massaged it so its feeling a wee bit better.. i will see how it feels in the morning

oh and cleaned my room..well partially.. and am throwing away all my size 14 pants..they really are waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too big for me...and im not ever putting back on 10kgs to get back there
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..uh oh..chocolate , chips AND shopping

..mmmmmhmmmmmm... i have been trying to do my ossieostrich for hte past week but today my achilles, decided to pull my head out of the sand kicking and screaming..

had a good start to the day, minus the hour plus that i ended up being in traffic for(what the..im not used to driving through the city at peak hour)..and then decided to go for a run...was having a conversation with a friend yesterday about what to run, he thinks i should stick to slow runs and no speed yet but no more than 50 mins..ok so the plan was to run for 50 mins... uh uh!!! went to the tan so i could kind of watch the time..was aiming for between 5:40-6min/km pace... was difficult to stick to that pace...bt i stuck with it
first lap 21:35 so 5:39pace..perfect..the achilles was really sore for the whole run..i was literally trying to work put what the difference between a niggle and a 'you really should stop running pain' is(also when i stopped for drink and restarted it hurt HEAPS and i was kinda limping for a bit while running hmmm) anyway...the universe musta been bored (and listening)because it decided to show me exactly what the difference is(and remove all doubt)..at the end of the second lap when trying to run up anderson st...i actually couldnt...too tight and hurt too much....even i knew that was a sign to stop..still quite sore so i suppose i will ice it and take anti inflamms... dont think it will stop me from running..ill give it another go on sunday(and i have squash drills tomorrow)
so all up 40 mins i think @5:40ish min/km pace..but a disappointing run :(

so on my way home..a bit depressed, i went shopping..bought a dress(quite flattering 2, 2 nice shirts for work, a snug skirt ....i do have to say that i love the fact that i only ever grab a size 10 now for my bottom half(i used to grab the 12..just in case...)
having said that , i may not be doing that for much longer..i went and bought chips...and chocolate(and i so irregularly eat choc..feel a bit sick after eating it....lol

staying home to watch the pies(cwood) tonight..one of my ex-colleagues is coming to look at the room..he's a bit cute too(i think he has cute friends too) dont worry..wouldnt go there tho--i have a rule about boys that are skinnier than me :) made that mistake once before..nothing wrong with living with a bit of eye candy tho!!!

..its all about me!!!

..guess who is on holidays.....................woohooooooooooooooo

um yep thatd be me ..me.. me .. me.. me.... its all abou me :)

had a few after school drinkies...many congratulations about me getting permanency..nice..still have to resing from my old school..not looking forwrd to that..went out with friends last night and didnt tell the majority of them cos i dont want hte principal to hear it on the grpevine..
..will finally be able to get car fixed..from flatmate crashing into it..hopefully psycho flatemeate will move out soon too! she has been asked..havent seen much movement though...back was really sore today(thatd be the 29kms in the last week jojo :( in the same spot whihc i believe is the SIJ.probably will need to have a huge injection into it)had a fun day at school today.. was telling the year 11's i was excited to get back on squash court(one of htem was about to play) and hten they ar elike miss miss..how do you get those high backhand serves so i was giving them some tips//maybe they should give me squash as a sport
..oh and apparently i looked very summery today..
..maybe i was just..littel miss susnshine..hehe

..happy..i think???

..well i got the job...
..but it was a bit stressful..cos it wasnt official, and i wasnt sure if the person who sits two desks behind me had been told he was unsuccessful..and people are congratulating me..i cant lie when people ask me outright.. felt awkward.
..anyway am very happy to have got hte job.. i have to say i am very lucky... obviously i interview well(not big headed- just true LOL) i get lots of jobs even though i may not be hte best candidate....i may be..but i know how to interview..and being slightly extroverted(in that situation) helps.. but i allow my enthusiasm to show,..
..unfortunately i find it difficult to curb that in my real life..
i ran 8.5kms today(45 mins) .. which brings total on last 7 days to 29kms(up from ummmmmm 22kms) will try to cut back but next week is 3 day run week....
..and that person who was annoying me.. i think thats all sorted.. i get very fiery for about 20 mins... and then its like what.. what... who says i have the attention span of a gnat..
..and just for the record..i make my own decisions..whilest my sister lectures me(or my brother) being the younger sister, i dutifully take it... and hten go and do whatever i feel like doing!!!! so plththththththth to someone asking me today if i have to ask my sister....

..jojo jojo jojo

..long long day today...

at work for an extra before school class..then big day followed by a job interview after school followed by playing with my nieces followed by a marathon massage from corrie..she is sooooo good though.. and it is nice that she laughs at my jokes..we sat and chatted for about 20 mins before we even started (i was her last client)
//then have spent an hour doing homework..sooooo tired

..got the usual lecture off my sister ..about the fact that i have been shagging someone who doesnt really like me..and that im just doing what i always do .. and i dont know some other stuff that she always says to me..i kinda tuned out when she was telling me the other stuff i should be doing...sigh
..also cant really comment but someone took something i said the wrong way i think..and seemed to get shitty..either that or they think im shitty.. i dont know...where's that sand for me to stick my head in LOL
..am way too tired...way too everything tonight...just feel exhausted

..a quickie but a goodie

..been very contemplative today and last night
3 topics today..run..mood..the universe

1. not much time after school so went for a quickie..just 5kms at 23:28 so 4:41 pace...kinda hilly(not mountainous hills but balwyn is kinda hilly)..i ran too fast at the beginning but felt very very strong..achilles pretty tight again.. really want to run sub 4;30min/kms for tan relays

2. been in a funny old mood last two days..cant comment too much.. anyway apparently i DO NOT learn from past mistakes.. im a silly silly girl sometimes..thats all i can say..job interview tomorrow and still struggling with the whole do i really want to give up my sat mornings..am exhausted and feel like i only have one day off per week..one of my friends who i actually value their opinion thinks i should(it is a lot more money) but money doesnt really turn my world :( maybe it should... because im pretty crap in the other components of my life

3.the universe.. theres obviously gotta be a certain amount of back pain traveling around the univers..since my back stoppped hurting last friday about 4 people i know have complained about having a sore back..sorry people..that pain had to go somewhere :) its like when i had some warts on my fingers as a kid..i told them to go away(which they did) but 2 other people i knew ended up getting them ..lol ( iwas only about 7) its the whole mass cant just vanish thing i reckon ..now if i can just work out whose achilles is hurting less ..cos mine sure as hell is hurting quite a bit when i run
..have joined facebook..but dont know how to use it...anyone know how to change my username.. like putting the photos up
..lotsa hwk(been at the pub again(not my fault) 2 drinks then went home..pat on head for joey bean surely i hafta be in a better mood tomorrow yeah..hehe..not in that bad a mood..just feel a bit blah..im sure its just gurly stuff
..oh and edit.. i really dont understand what it is about me..but ill be sitting there nicely..and someone i know (male or female) often just see the need to make some comment about my breasts..where does this come from??? im always surprised.. i dont make comments about theirs..its not like my girls are ridiculously disproportionately big.... i cant rememebr the last time i went...gee you really are flat arent u..just out of the blue! not annoyed or anything..shes a funny girl...but it just happens soooooo regularly...

..champers for brekky

..umm yepppp as the tile procliams..champers for brekky for this little sausage head..only just sobre enough now to blog..lol
..em pickem me up about 5-7 this morning..i took my picnic hamper. plus muffins plus bread avocado tomoato lettuce and boiled eggs..and yeah champers..we sat on the side cheering on team-mates etc..some of whom threw water on us ..well ill be....
the us...included..my sunny little self, em,sam..he;s such a sweetheart, blueboy...saw the usual suspects..poor tony had a tough one today, stu decided to change his shoes half way..i think he just wanted more time to heckle us really, jeg of course, and morsey runs(bugger about eaving he rpres in my car..oops..how cute is bella...sara had a sign that said run faster which she went to hold up for stu but i declined to hold saying i dont wanna..ill get in trouble... lol...
so from htere to the grand,,which didnt open til midday so i prvided some champers for the burgers cohort still left standing,,,then had a tiddly trm trip home followed by a nap..which i just woke up from..contemplating 1 doing some homework and 2 getting a souva.. ok this little pearler has taken me forver to type ..im gonna check out this facebook thingamyjig