..i hate decisions :(

..there has been a decision i have been trying to make... i hate decisions they are NOT my strong suit...and yes i am being deliberately vague
,,,anyway i FINALLY came to a decision in the last couple of days-it is just a matter of timing as to whether i do it now or wait...
the problem is that i have to make a phone call that i dont particularly want to do
advantages of waiting-dont have to make the phone call til later(many many months)
advantages of not waiting-dont have to stress about said phone call-and just get the inevitable done

anyway enough of that...i have to make the decision in the next few days so i think i will give myself sunday as the deadline

soooooo glad it is friday-

had a drink at work-then out for drinks/dinner with stu and a few friends.felt a bit bad cos a friend bought me a drink which i couldnt return-cos i wouldnt have let her buy me one otherwise

stu away tomorrow night..BUT.silly miss jo will probs miss the boy-whatta sad case i am

its weird-had 3 drinks over 3 and half hours(which should be fine) but was kinda glad that there was no booze bus...probs woulda been fine....
no running -rest day

..a couple of misinformed decisions

..ok...so PERHAPS miss jo got a but excited
//all this talk of NOT being in pain constantly made her think she was in a better state than she was(and yes she is refusing to talk about herself in the first party)
..in her infinite wisdom(and she is a brainy gal of course ;)
//after having a slightly sore back from carrying too heavy a backpack she spoke to her coach regarding NOT running and he said fine do pool running and then swim for a bit.SHE HATES SWIMMING with a passion so could NOT motivate herself so instead ran sore back and all, on concrete/bitumen no less..
little miss jojo paid for it today with a not so great back=then come run time...did NOT learn from previous mistakes and chose to go ahead with her speed session(and this is the KICKER) even tho her back was sore b4 she started(a NONO even in her books)
so the session was
10mins easy
5x30s hard, 2 min break between reps with 4mins break between sets and then anoter one

then 20min cool down

umm then sat in the car waiting for pilates ..back froze up-could barely move..super sore..back on anti inflamms...couldnt do the proper pilates session..needed some mobilization..which means elbows in the glute and back

..but then dinner out with the delightful(sometimes..lol) bf
..and a wine or 3 to soothe the unhappy beast(back)

...uh oh...i can be a LITTLE teensy bit annoying....lol

okey dokey..so i can be the TEENSIEST TEENSIEST bit annoying...lol...shush stu
..am in a VERY VERY good mood...just had a great appt with the sports doc-who'd a THUNK it
... she was extremely pleased with me- pat on the head for jojo
... i was able to bnd and everything... she was like WOW-thats a huge improvement... and NO DRY NEEDLING...i was kinda stressed cos that kinda hurt like hell last time...and im pretty TUFF you know ;)
..she did also say -yeah your back was pretty trashed the last time i saw you
..she did also state the importance for not getting carried away etc etc(and yes i listened-transferred all this info to stu already re speed work and haveing a longer break after a couple of reps-very important so i maintain strong core)
..so i told her that yes i had been doing speed work(which was advised against)- and then i told her how i had rationalised out racing the tan(my initial appt had been for after the race if it hadnt been moved, then she would never have tolld me not to!) she laughed and said she liked my rationalisation...how cool!!! lots of chit chat today
..she also said she had sussed out my personality and spoke accordingly to me..ie i was still going to run- but had to restrict some things and i needed to REALISE it would TAKE longer to be take effect and i wasnt as strong as i thought and was still building(i made lots of suggestions for changes and there was a bit of WHOA- lets not change from where we are-still no hills-keep the strapping for now)...and she was quite clear on this..i need to remember im not going to get better or EVER be cured.... but ..and wait for it this is the BEST BEST BESTEST bit ever
...i was saying my pain was tolerable now...no panadeine for brekky...maybe a couple hours pain per day(sooooo much better than previous-you have no idea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)im pretty happy how it is
..and shes like there will always be some underlying pain bt i would like you to be pretty much pain free... and know how to realise when it is ont he verge of flaring and what to do

OMG i cant even BEGIN to imagine a life like that! i was practically bouncing off the walls... i was prepared to be happy with only3 days of pain(less than half the time)i was already pretty happy...imagine just having a close to normal life!!!!!!!!!!!
...AND THEN THE SNEAKY THOUGHTS BEGUN!
maybe squash IS a chance after all
.maybe i will get to do long jump..
maybe..plus a million more previously retired thoughts..but trying VEY hard(not succeeding) to get carried away(i wont do anything silly though b4 you say dont...)
..MAYBE I COULD BE (ALMOST) LIKE A NORMAL PERSON..yay
..how will stu put up with me-if im consistently in a good-(read maybe hyper)mood..lol.. just cracking myself up..he musta rolled his eyes about 150 times tonight at me

..first day back

OMG-the alarm just about killed me this morning...it couldnt possibly already be 5.45...SURELY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ugghghghhggh nd then a day of professional development where we literally had boring lectures nearly all day :(
..then supposed to be 30min pool run followed by 500m of swimming....but errrr ahhhhh i kinda cracked it and decided that stu is my running coach and he CANT MAKE me go swimming and that is NOT part of his coaching role..lol..etc.etc(i dont think you realise HOW much i hate swimming) anyway i point blank could not talk myself around so i did a 45 min pool run...

..and im a bit stressed about having someone else living here(not here yet)-as stu said i can be fussy... i brought up that someone on shiftwork should go down to the other TV if its after midnight(which i think is reasonable) rather than the one DIRECTLY outside my bedroom..and he told me to stop and it wouldnt matter(and i actually am a light sleeper)...but i think things like that need to be discussed beforehand..anyway ..he and I are quite different in that respect..im a worrier
...still seriously broke..i guess having someone else contributing will help.. too many things stressing me at the moment..a couple of other things as well

..well last night was coburg presentation night-i received most improved athlete(well probably because last year i could barely bend) although as stu pointed out a couple of my races were actual pbs i guess...
anyway i was quite concerned when i was informed they were going to have an u18 team which would effectively mean no open womens team-just stacey and I, one girl who hasnt competed regularly yet, and another who doesnt really enjoy competing.. i wasnt overly happy-i understand from a team future perspective(and AGREE) that to get juniors to run that we need a junior team so they can throw their actual weights not the senior weights, but as a competitior, whilst i do run for myself i really like the whole team aspect. i have to say i was contemplating my options!!!!!if it really was just the couple of people, im not sure what i would have done..
..anyway j sent me a message today saying he had decided to put in an u16 team-which i think is a good option, which also leaves 3 u18 girls who can still compete with us(and none of them are throwers so it wont affect them)

todays run- 60mins..i actually think given how sick i had been lately that it was probably a bit too long..first 25mins was good but after that was really struggling a lot... anyway as my coach said(not calling him my bf at the mo cos i dont like him that much at the moment...lol) its kms in the bank...grumble grumble

..silly tummy

..silly tummy
-my tummy is still playing a bit of funny buggers. i think it may be the tablets i am on for the cellulitis in my finger(which is improving thankfully- the finger cellulitis is not a major worry because the infection site is so small compared to the leg which is a hefty percentage of my body)
-all day i have been burping and feeling a tad unwell.... when i say burping im not talking lady like ones-stu can vouch for me- more like barney from the simpsons ones!!!! and millions of them
...so the run this morning was particularly unpleasant...burping and running do not go together well- then after my shower i needed to lay down for a while as my belly was not very happy... i eventually had a powerade(which i probably should have had the day i was spewing-to replace electrolytes etc)
..anyway felt a bit better after that but the belly is still feeling a little uneasy

so horrid 7kms today...and ummm no homework as i had planned to do loads..blaming the belly
and stu and i are about to head off for the coburg winter presentation night at a cafe in melbourne

..oooh some speed...i like it!

well i do like speed-its official
however what i havent liked is how i have felt on tuesday and wed... my aunt and uncle had the same gastro bug.... woke up on tuesday spewing my guts up....oooooh..i have a very tender belly and am very prone to gastro :(
went to training tues night, then did one lap warm up and then had to go and lay on the concrete for an hour(obviously i couldnt train that night...oopsie)
then yesterday i was feeling so so so FAINT..i actually thought i was going to faint at the wombat gully nursery...stu is like ..c.an i leave declan here while i go to training..and i was like...ummmmm no---- seriously i couldnt have been responsible for someone else -i just felt so bad!!!!!

anyway last night about 6 i started to feel better..however today when i got to the track my belly was doing flip flops...lots of those spew burps....NOT GOOD
..i even said to stu...if you make me spew youre in trouble

anyway figured i may as well run until i spewed...lol
anyway it was a hard session 5x150m then do again at roughly my 400m speed..
i hit low 25s nearly every time(8 of the reps), with one low 26 and one high 24
..anyway for the pacings..here are the 400 equivalent(not that i could continue) and 1km(not likely) but so you have an idea
so for me 8x25s 1x26s and one x 24.9s
150 time (equiv 400 pace)( equiv 1km pace)
24.5 (65.3)( 2:43)
25 (66.7)( 2:47 )
25.5 (68)( 2:50)
26 (69.3)( 2:53)

was feeling a bit ill actually after it(as were a few other girls) 2 - 2:30min recoveries between reps with 5-6min break between the two sets
ran 2s per 150 faster than last week-but thats because it was longer breaks...stu had our group set up really well..2 started 2 s ahead of me, then 1 girl 1s faster, 1 girl with me, 1 girl 1s behind,1 girl 2s behind me and stu somewhere behind me, so it was like a race... I was VERY happy with HOW consistent my reps were

seriously need to do some homework tomorrow..and only a water run after speed work..fri is usually a rest but i just had two rest(sick) days