..get over yourself

..you know what..i have it pretty good.. i dwell on all sorts of sh1t..that really is not at all imprtant
in june of last year..i went to the doctor after i found a lump....to which her reply...yes that is worriesome..lets get you into the hospital tomorrow..(last day of term...cant it wait til monday...NO) now thats real stress! and thats just the thought of what could happen.. it all ended up ok...a lovely 4 massive needles in my breasts whilst not pleasant..i felt extremey lucky to be given a clean bill of health.. One of my gf's mothers died a few weeks ago, my grandmother is certainly not far off it :( and aparently my father did a very good job of almost cutting his life a little short on the weekend(hes ok) was reading stu's blog and a friend of his has just passed away :(
..sometimes it makes you realise just how lucky you are.. i was feeling VERY sad about my sister leaving...but at the END of the day.. i will see them again..and if i dont manage to make it back to squash..well there are worse things
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..having said that had such a lovely time with my sister and 2 nieces today..ive been ostriching and everytime i think about..i get a bit upset(like now) however much i rationalise and think logically... my brain is NOT winning this war with my emotions... i am completely gutted...
my family is everything..my brother,sister and I are super close(that happens when your parents are a bit..well eccentric is a nice way of putting it) my bf(best friend) often comments...you guys are sooooo normal..considering......LOL-she has known me since i was 13!

my session tomorrwo is 3x400m @ 90 s with 10-15min warm up and cool down... did i mention stu has actually been coaching me lately...which is why i have been soo restrained(im too scared to step out of line )kidding... i am actually very appreciative

..sorry a bit of a solemn..and not as flippant as usual post.... sigh where is fun jo tonight..oh ok..its her day off! fair enough

..B and M

..ummmm where to start... be forwarned there is a little bit of a Band M coming(b%tch and Moan)
1) did half hour easy squash drills tonight(love working at a school with squash courts :)..... i keep forgetting my BACK is rubbish... couldnt bend over properly once i cooled down..i took it really easy TOO. made me a bit depressed..so far away from returning to a match..let alone A grade..let alone moving to State Grade.F7ck that for a joke
..im also trying really hard to listen to my friend who really has been coaching me lately... and he is completely correct with keeping me restained(not my natural state)..thats probably the best thing about having someone to tell me what to do...im sure that if i can do 45:36 fo 10km on 20-ish kms a week... if i do some real training, i should definitely be able to beat that next year

Em- yeah babe im not allowed to run that far yet but i could run 10-ish kms with you..that would be awesome..i can even 'shut up' sometimes when im running(just dont ask sara..i may have ummmmmm talked that WHOLE 10kms without breathing LOL)

had a massage with Corrie-she is awesome..made me laugh when i was locked in cos her bf had taken the keys(thank god its not just me who does silly stuff!!!)apparently back VERY tight)no surprise there)

and finally cleaned my room..done many times lately..but havent finished completely.i actually like my clothes in sorted in colours and they arent at the moment!

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i seriously have to turn more lights on... i just smacked my knee/arm into a closed door(when you dont live by yourself people shut stuff) and it was too dark!
...LOL im a shocker

okey doke! i should go.even though id love to stay and chat..my flatmate doesnt talk to me(the ddge one)
i asked her when shes moving out(we only aked her 9 weeks ago!!!)

.grandma jo

..grandma jo???? surely you have to have kids before you can be a grandma..LOL..and im definitely a wee bit too young !!!!!.....according to Em however i am a grandma (LOL)as she called me one yesterday... well honey....i have never worn a petticoat but have some lovely skirts that i cant wear to work cos in the sun they are a little see through..so have been meaning to get one...also im paranoid about the boys seeing my underwear through a skirt

..anyway woke up this morning very easily and in the most SUPERB of moods..went over to a friends house for a drink r two and then home by 10pm...good girl..in bed by 11pm and i got my marking up to date woohoo
i love daylight saving

..went for a run after school today(had a dinner invitation so no time to go to the Tan, ran nearby...these were the splits
1.07km(5:09min/km)
.93km(4:50min/km)
1km(4:55min/km)
2km(5:05min/km)
1km(5:10min/km)
1km(5:02min/km)
i was supposed to be doing 5:15 pace-but i suck at pacing..even with a garmin
when i looked during the third km it said the average pace was 5:10 so i assumed ok..but what had happened is i had hit lap instead of stop when i had a drink stop and as a result blew out my average pace which is what i was going by and then forgot to restart...cos when i started i hit start/stop again(to start) but of course it stopped it DUFUS.. so ran a bit more than 7kms but not really sure how much further-less than half a km more i reckon felt heaps stronger today than last tues or sat/// 5min/kms felt easier than the 5:20 min/kms on saturday

I was also looking at Em's training and im thinking maybe i should see if i could tag along on one of Ems long runs..we run a very similar pace..her being the pacing superstart she is -i might learn a thing or two

out to dinner tonight..nice..... home nice and early...even nicer :)

..pure blonde

..well yesterday was an exhausting day...school from 11:30 til 9pm..sooo tired...
..no running today.. back has pulled up a little sore from yesterday :( ..achilles also a little sore...neither shocking but it might be necessary to have another rest day tomorrow and do water running instead
..andrew will laugh at this next bit...
i ahhhh ummmm went shopping..and on the way stoppped at smith street and decided id better not keep going to my original destination after that for more shopping(how restrained little joey bean ;)
..anyway i bought the following for summer work clothes
1burgundy skirt
1green skirt
i purple skirt
1 white shirt
1 blue(royal blue) shirt
1 burgundy shirt
1 petticoat
and then decided since id already gone over my budget for the day..and i ahh eerrrrrr accidentally stopped off and bought ummmmm hang on counting...um still counting 12 books...LOL there was this great sale on johnston st

these are the books
life at the wrong end of the job market (Elisabeth Wynhausen)
Napolean-the sun of austerlitz (Max Gallo)
Buried (mark Billingham)
Three Day Road (Joseph Boyden)
The ambulance chaser (richard beasely)
A brothers journey(richard pelzer)-this one is gonna make me cry
The lost thoughts of soldiers (delia falconer)

and some absolute pieces of fluff/trash..like the sun is compared to the age(i heard it called a lolly paper which i thought was great...all sugar..no substance)
Love walked in (marisa de los santos)
R is for ricochet(sue Grafton)
The man of my dreams(fiction of course-there is no man of MY dreams-its a myth)curtis sittenfeld
A book on bellydancing
..i was soo excited when i saw this one i may just have squealed in delight.. my all time favourite..a calvin and hobbes comic book

calvin hobbes quote: reality always ruins my fun

....aths aths and more aths

..its 9:13 and finally my work commitments of the day are over(i started at 11:30)

so got up early this morning 7:45 is and headed intot he city by 8:30 am.to start running about 8:50
yeah you might have noticed the late night errrrr drunk post last night..i only rembered about 2pm todya that i did this and was going to delete..but hten people had already commented and who knows how many people had already read it...
Em you will be impressed
i did my 11km run this morning..wasnt a great run...very dehyrated and it was very hot..i took a drink stop every 15 mins...did not enjoy much at all, but was very happy with how the achilles was..sore to begin..but eased up...and is a little sore now but not hugely..so abou an hour 5:25 min/kms instead of 5:10 but no way could i manage 5:10min/km today :(
..thoughts from last night
i found out somethign VERY disturbing last night..i have always completely trusted christian..he is the only person who knows certain thing s about me..and i was very disappointed and upset to find out he had told one of my friend's something he promised he would never tell anyone..thanks christian..like i dont already find it hard enough to trust people now :P
..my friend vic makes me laugh a lot
..i worry about a friend of mine who i know is a bit sick but wont tell me anything about it..which of course is their perogative..but i worry and fret a little
..me being accountable about my running makes me go and do it even on days when i dont want to..thanks for that stu... werent you my favourite person this morning at 9am ...NOT..i only blame you cos you wrote that session for me
..Me doing 11kms is the biggest run i have done since back injury which is a GOOD sign

..and yes Em..i might be a bit bridget jones-ish..i sure fall over enough!!!!!!

..uh oh.. drunk pussycat

..ok so its 2am... so i know better tha to post at 2am...dont I" apparently not

very tired so here arev te things i leanrd tonight
i)i need mor esleep than im gettng
ii)lots of boys come up chatting to my gf and i when we are out
iii)i actually like my CG more than im supposed to
iv)when my friend drags me into a 'naughty; shop dont expect to come out spending less than a hundred dollars on stuff you dont want and dont know WHY you bought\
v)is running at 9am after being out til 2:40 am really gonna happen...shhhhhh dont tell anyone..i might get in trouble

kisses

..that might actually be a real session

..OMG the world does actually exist at 5:15am..who woulda thunk it... i got up (reluctantly and possibly swearing)in the car at 5:30 running by 5:45.. session was as follows
1km 5:35min/km warm up followed by stretching
2kms 5:13min/km ..this felt harder than normal
2kms 4:40min/km
2kms 5:09min/km...... not really consistent though..struggled a lot in the last km-dont have many kms int he legs i reckon is the reason

actually waked 200m between the 4:40 2km and the 5:10 min/km (but that ws cos i was BUSTING/...and hte damn thing was shut..was not happy after that

busy day at work..boys a bit all over the shop...
then a quick couple drinks at the pub(2) prior to the year 12 presentation night(went forever) and now home at 10:30 trying to wind down(QUICKLY COS I NEED TO BE IN BED )
-drove home without my lights on(and found very hard to even stay awake)...oops..too tired tonight
...i cant muster up any more than the facts today...can i please borrow some of tomorrows energy now..i know i dont need all of tomorrows tomorrow
yawn..maybe a wine to wind down.... JOJO got to bed