am i a runner or a slug

.sometimes the question BEGS, nay screams out to me...
what would normally be a doable set was infinitely impossible!

yes it was raining, ye si was running through puddles...but ummm who was that slacker running-dont get me wrong i was WORKING my ass off!

supposed to be 96s lap so 3.12 800s x 5 or 6

first rep 94s,second 94s, then tummy issues, then a longer break as a result. 94, told stu i felt like complete crap, my eyes were in the;i feel shit mode" its hard to explain, its like i cant fully open them and after 500m i stopped my next rep
so up to now my 600s had been in approx 2.25 , i decided no more 800s if i could do 600 well and good
next 600 was in 2.30! OMG thats a big dropoff, the next one was even slower, slower than 100s laps(that hasnt happened for like 2 years) 2,34!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so i worked at a good intensity but my speed was complete rubbish(I DAREN'T EVEN USE term speed)
light jog tonight 40ins as i couldnt get ot the track til 5.30
have changed my reps to wed/fri this week
either 1kms or 600s tomorrow.pleeeeeease let it be 600s
i am soo impressed by Ems kms. i do 45-50kms in a week and feel like i have run FOREVER!, i need her sort of commitment, i am officially SOFT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ill have to chat about it sometime, im sure if i committed to 60kms week, i would see improvement and more importantly maybe some weight loss(feeling a bit fatty boombah-ish)
ahh sigh i want ot be a better runner, but am i prepared to do the hard yards?? and do the 'sleeplek' im unconvinced that I can be such a good girl-
next year i might give it a go i think-but i do hate runnning in the dark-so much more likely to fall over(and thats NOT a joke but a reality :(
sighhghghghg why cant i be a better runner without the hard yards... lol
just give me a 42-3 10km, a sub 2.30 800 a 5.20 1500 a 64 400 a sub 100 half and ill be all sorted... umm yeah and i know-not fricking likely!

..a new way to run hills..lol

okey dokey
thursday still struggling to walk down stairs,had to compensate one leg and get both legs on one step etc
quite impressive how fast ones body can heal
on friday still very sore but walking down stairs okay. so decide to trot a bit at the track
did approx 2km, but when i tried to do strides, the 'pulling' on the knee was quite bad and couldnt really push off and wasnt lifting legs well
pretty stingy afterwards

then work this morning and out to brimbank, nup not racing, just running
got to the start line(still couldnt do strides), took off conservatively, and then saw a girl from my club and though, hmm maybe ill work up to her, not sure i want her to beat me. worked up(def faster in the flat) came up to a mother of a hill, knew it would be two much for my weeping knees and walked up the hill, probs didnt lose too much time as i reckon i gained it back in the next km,
there was another hill i also walked a bit of...IM soft as, well maybe not SOFT, i did run with bandaged and weeping and very sore knees, but im hill soft!
i had the course as 6.2km? em how bout you? so if its 6.2 then i ran under 5min kms(corssed 6km in 29.30 and then 6.2km in 30.20. anyway, happy enough with that.
not too shabby- probs the toughest cross country course i have ever run. seriously, when i looked up and saw teh hill, i "EXPLETED" rather loudly

day 4 and the healing begins

..the knees are getting significantly better every single day. can now walk up the stairs, but not down properly(ill post a pic later)

so no running, not much to report.

got some bad family news yesterday which is very depressing and i had a good cry, but it may be okay. its a wait and see thing

anyway busy day at work today. and here is the pic

i wish there was nother title but KERSPLATTTTT it is!(and a cple of graphic photos)

yep

yep yep

does any more really need to be said

i have to say- i was ON FIRE tody-running REALLY well.super happy with how i was going, yes maybe a tad too hard early but felt good, USED the downhill to advantage-and im usually a nanna on downhill, i even overtook someone! did a bit of walking though in the hills. got past 10kms and was about 53ish mins with a mega hill but with a hard part to go. but KNEW i was goi ng to SMASH 90 mins(aimed for about that)

toodling along nicely- before kapow, shezamm im on the floor, landed on both knees

of course i have a little panic.2 years ago-a TERRIBLE case of cellutlitis- but at elast i can keep running this time but HAVE doen BOTH knees. very sore, was walking quite a bit, getting a bit, well how am i going to finish, i need to wash myself so i dont get cellulitis :(

someone runs past-im standing there not even running

'have you got any water

nope-are you okay

yeah, theres an aid station soon and then a bit of jogging and a fair amount of walking

a lot more ppl ask as you would expect, then FINALLY finally get to the aid station but they really werent much CHOP

heres some wet paper towel.. ummm that kinda leaves fibres on me. can i just have water.trying to get rid of some of the crap- it is very very dirty. then they have gone

'do you want some wet wipes'

err no, do you have a bandage(meaning gauze of some descript)

and they bring out one of those stretchy OUTSIDE bandages(OMG can you imagine trying to get that F%$#er off-good lord!!!)

err no no no no- just water

'do you want us to get a lift back'

'no that all right, ill run' (its gonna be 2.5km)

'it's 2,5kms you know"

"yes its ONLY 2.5kms so i will be able to run, they do have a full first aid stattion there yeah(they had told me they didnt really have much)

i had been there a whilewhich i was kind spewing about. then ran back-ouchies but moved along, but couldnt put any pressure on the knees up the hill(as one might expect) so walked(probs woulda anyway!)

finished in 91mins so not too bad, disappointed to be beaten by someone in my club who i was ahead, silly i know, but i HAD put in the work and was minutes ahead :(

hoping the knee does not get infected, am alreay on teh anti cellulitis meds. stinging like hell really

-do i feel sorry for myself..not net but if it gets infected and i cant run for weeks, then YES

oh and the chemist is looking at my knees going-its still dirty you need to scrub it with a rish(i did do this with my hands, but umm one part of my knee is at least .5cm deep, i CANNOT scrub it- i felt like crying here cos i knew..... anyway after consultation we decide to send me to the dr

who was a SHMA- he gave it a little clean, and when ive gone arent you going to clean it all?

no it will be too painful

err,not running for four weeks cos it gets infected will be more painful

anyway- theyre all like you need some serious painkillers and i was given codeine. dont get me wrong-it stings and is pretty damn shit right now,(and i may need them tomorrow) but surely people need to try to tolerate a bit of pain

anyway sorry about the graphic photos

dont look if you are squeamish-and the first one is right leg, then left leg-right feels worse

..who is the fairest maiden in the land-definitely someone else, who is the biggest idiot in the land-well that might be ME

..so how is it that two weeks ago i managed all my 400 reps with 200 recov at a pace of 87-91
??????? perhaps i was training too hard?????
??????? i did have people to tack onto

whereas tonight
-i was the pacer-the others did 300s except for 2 other gals
-some girly issues
-ran in my heavy shoes instead of my zooms
-no stu to try to stick with
anyway
90.96,97 WTF
93,96,92
yeah well off my game today-and i was WORKING HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! maybe my body was in auto-u have a tough15kmer on sunday-this is all youre a llowed to do

or im just SHIT! lol probably the latter

did a 40min wate run yesterday-
um-to the title- who is the biggest idiot of them all???- apparently when they were handing out the stupid genes, all i heard was a question and being the goody two shoes that i am, i kept volunteering before i realised what i was frigging volunteering for
DUFUS DUFUS DUFUS
miss jo has a super busy day at work yesterdy and toodles off in jojo land where all is pleasant and heads off to the pool. disappointingly it was an outdoor pool(never a fave) -have left my purse in the carand only put the 5.50 in my pocket for the pool-whatta clever girl-then no one can steal my little wallet
sounds reasonable..... realise when doing my water run out in the cold LAST NIGHT that ummmmmmmmmm dufus head jojo left her towel in the car OMFG and it is FREEZING and ummmmmmmm no money to EVEN hire a towel... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
okay deal with it softy- yep ill just have to dry myself with my errrr my singlet.
OKAY best piece of advice- drying oneself with a singlet is not much fun! also when one forgets their towel and is already very cold, it REALLY REALLY and i mean REALLY doesnt help when there arent any hot showers(not even warm-who knows what happened. but puuuuurlease did it have to be the day i forgot my towel and was hypo-friggin-thermic!!!!!!!!!\\
hehe, only there wasnt much hehe yesterday it was more like f%$#&^% and F%^&^%% and a bit more f&^&*^&$%#$)

yes david- a good training session

got to training feeling hungry-never a good sign...lol
also nearly the special visitor time equates to not necessarily good running form.anyway the set was 3min on,2min jog, 2min on, 1min jog,30s on,30s jog, with active 2min recovery after(include 30s drink stop time) and DO this x 3!
i started off quite easy(even tho it felt kinda hard) and sat 10mins off the main pack(who i often sit with), thinking i didnt want to go too hard too early
by the second and third set i was with the pack and feeling pretty good(working but not at the right level)- much better tah the first time i did this set and nearly spewed after going too hard too early

so tonights training session ended up being remarkably good...shouldve known it would be when stu informed others i was feeling average, and my immediate response was NO im not...lol

so very happy with the set- yes david, YES...lol it WAS enjoyable... have iced the achilles-some residual(and expected) soreness but nothing too bad

..no motivation to race

..yep i did utter those words.
sore shins, super tight calves, working and standing on my feet ALL morning and most importantly NO FRICKING team which meant NO POINTS
i mean cmon girls-we only need 4 people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
anyway i had offered to run in the mens if needed(12km ughghg) warmed up ready and then told no they were all present -wooho
so instead i ran the route backwards and crisscrossed and got to see lots of the race. it is quite hilly really. anyway i ran about 8.5kms and was a super tired gal last night

sleep in today and then an 11.5km run on the flats of riverbend today.legs still tired(have been for a while) and hten a massage and my calves do feel markedly better(shins were niggly on the run today, see how the mssge helps that

oh yeah thursday
was to do 400s with 200 floats but stu said i could do 300s and walk back-so did 67,65,65,63,62,61 and all up about 6km

getting there and hopefully the legs are getting used to the extra kms.