..hohum.... just another missed start to the season

..HONESTLY, im tryng not to dwell on it, Im trying not be thinking how unfair it is that 3 out of the last 4 years i have missed the first few rounds of a xcountry season, im trying to just be happy that i am on the comeback trail
...but really right now its not working that well. my heart and irrationl brain is wiining out over my rational brain telling me its okay and it doesnt mean ill have a shit track season, and it doesnt matter that i wont pb my GOAL race of XCR, and it doesnt matter...but well it fricking kind does

it could be worse though...i could still be on crutches, i couldve snapped my achilles, my barney back could be sore ALL the time(like the days of yore) and i could be unable to run at all in the near future i suppose
yep, not exactly miss optimistic tonight, sorry, but well really i just cant help it. theres a bit of grrr going on in my head and im not exaclty mysel really. itll sort itself out.obviously i stomped on poor kittens heads in my previous lives and am dealing with the kharma now(just kidding my life is good, just annoyed) and apparently two minded at the moment, grumpy then apologetic, then grumpy then apologetic. one of you personalities take a frickin stand and be done with it please...oh good, there you go................

forgot to mention, did another jog yesterday-ccidentally did an extr 5 mins(lost kid) so ended up doing 17-18 mins super slow in short times ie 2.5 or 3-3.5 mins. achilles a little tender today but mybe its just that its cold. not ridiculous, physio happy enough,llowed to run every 2d day now unless it hurts, MORE exercise OMG, more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

..keep it in perspective miss jo

..okey dokey
im a bit excited
today i managed 6x2mins slow jogging nd it felt okay ...yay....
wont know til tomorrow but if it pulls up okay, then i may be starting my very slow comeback :)
happy little gal-about to ice

also did 35mins on the bike today, 60min water run monday, and 45min ride sunday and 35 min ride sat, so trying to not get fat

having a wine, still a bit sick, sniffly snotty and pretty disgusting ...lol but am getting my voice back which make it helluv lot easier to teach....lol
ciao

...some pple are verry very rude

ah well its been a tough week...struck down by stoooopid lurgy. took the day off monday, slept til midday, so didnt exercise for 3 days as i felt very very average!
..well not quite true, on wednesday, i wouldve exercised but instead stus car broke down on toorak road, yep in peak hour with a phoine not fully charged,
so after trying to join roadside assistance and the phone cut out when they put me to the 'get me a car' person(i had been on phone 20mins at this stage) i had to ring back and they couldnt find my file(as their system was down and had done manually) so i had to rejoin a second time(yep 20more mins with me getitng very stressed) befoire i got put over to tow truck.... 50mins before they put me in the system...grr so i was there for 2 hours all up! yep happy, NOOOOOOOOOOT
and was doing the irrational- its stus fault, i wouldnt be broken down if i wasnt driving his stupid car which im only driving beacuse he lost his stupid licence...grrrrrrr lol
and THEN how rude is this - people are beeping at me...umm excuse me deadheads but ive broken down and my hazards ARE on. and the steering wheel loks so its not like u can push around the corner!!!!
oh and this guy pulls up behind me(whilst im on the phone) and starts asking me for directions to hoddle st, i gave him a dumfounded look(im on the phone AND broken down and hes asking me questions) i gave him an answer and then he started asking me more questions.
i gave him a stare and said, listen, Im on teh phone bc my CAR has broken down so i need to concentrate on this.sorry.do you have a melways. " yes and then i turned my back.
friggin hell man
anyway physio was happy so sid i could trial 10mins of running on thurs. i did 30s at a time, after 6 mins i knew it was not happy so pulled the pin. and i must admit wondering,, HOW ON EARTH DID I EVER RACE ON IT when it was worse than it is now, and i couldnt even contemplate speedwork.... ah big races apparently have a shift in pain tolerance
anyway did 35 mins on teh bike on thurs, friday i was sick nd in bed super early(no voice basically) and then saturday did 35 mins on the bike, and today did 45mins and planned an hour water run for tomrrow. My goal for this injury rehab is to NOT put on weight

anyway cranky little gal, still sick and completely sick of being sick(but am starting to get better

..ANTSY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...ughghghghgh cnt even remember where i got up to!
anyway physio on friday-yeah she's happy with me, but says i cant even begin the slow running for 2 weeks.

2 weeks? i said to her.................... how come the achilles takes so long?????????? then stupid answer which i know is correct...ughghghghhgh
but im frickn antsy and ready to run(well im not ready yet but will be in a week,
also when she said 1st of May, ive gone how much per week. what she said was ludicrously minimal...i think shes being a tad too conservative...my wail of but you said we would work towards the 10km rce in MAyb, yes you should be able to run 10km ...errr i mean to RACE lady ......
not happy because
a) stu will hold me accountable to her advice and i am unable to lie
b) if i hadnt gone to the stupid physio i wouldve decided that i could run at the end of next week
c) and seriously, im sick of the stupid pool and riding(it hurts)
d) really im not happy about the impact on my cross country

so im on a tendon rehabilitation program,,,booooooooooorrrrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnggggg
oh and in 4 weeks ill be adamn hippo, even tho ive been trying to watch wht i eat

60min water run today.i think the reason im a bit grumpy is that i wouldve been on my break btw seasons til tody, so tomorrow is when the disruption to my season kicks in.....
have i mentioned that im not talking to my stupid achilles, we are doing a mexican stand off at the moment

...hard to get up in the morning

..struggling to get up early again, it will sort itself out shortly i spose

did 35 mins pretty hard on the wind trainer(thanks em) yesterday- em do you have a mountain bike, i can only get it to press against one wheel, but there is still quite a bit if pressure from that

today trained the Xcountry boys, then did a 35min set of reps on the bike.but stopped at 35, just feeling it a bit..could be hte physio work i had done yesterday

physio very pleased with how much it has progressed, the words thats 'really good' were uttered by her, significnt progress..... etc
still not ready for running of course, still a slight limp but def getting closer :)

BIG day tomorrow- out the door 6.30, work, train the boys after school, off to the track and on the bike(may skip this dep on the achilles) and then stu and i are off to an hour and half bikram yoga-its gunna be HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they hve the room at 39 degrees or something!!!

anyway cia bellas and bellarettes

dennis the menace

i really am a dennis the menace.
we went for a ride this morning for stu to meet his training grp, nd whilst crossing the road, i didnt counter in a bump or something and i fell forward hitting myself on hte nobby bit below the handlebar..OMG i was in soooooooooo much pain, i got to the other side and then jumped off the bike and wallowed on the floor for a bit....lol im sure cars were looking at me oddly
oh yeah and look out kidlets or ill knock you over too!

i was riding along and slowed greatly as there was a little girl on a trike(her dad a bit behind) anyway she veered left so i went around on the right but then she veered violently right and ive screeched on my brakes and the little tacker came off her bike...she wasnt realy scratched or anything but i was so close to running her over-she was practically under my bike. ive turned around to her dad and im like- im really sorry, and hes going No, no i saw it, you couldnt do ANYTHING she just rode into you. (and then i did hear him telling her to ride straight...lol)

i dont like to think what wouldve happened if i hadnt slowed to a crawl.. anyway thats one of the reasons i dont like paths so i jumped onto the road for a bit. rode for 24kms altogether

..3 seasons out of four

it is now official
my body obviously does not like cross country. 3 seasons out of four, i have been unable to start the cross country season
2007- hurt my back in april
2008- on crutches after falling over a chain in april
2009-woohoo got to start
2010-miss the first 2 races due to achilles :( not happy jan,
i know Em can empathise

anyway, went to a nearby physio today, she doesnt think it is torn, but was quite unimpressed as i was telling her the story. anyway she seemed pretty good and i now have to see her twice a week for a bit
4 weeks NO RUNNING, so i am out of my denial phase thinking i would run next week. i came home and wanted to buy a spin bike but stu wouldnt let me......
she wants me to ice every day, some stretching and she queried me over my ankle on that side(i sprained bith medial and lateral concurrently a few years ago) nyway its very weak apparently.
oh and i am ridiculously tight in the calves and feet etc

so im a bit grumpy and trying to work out how i will fit every thing in
training every day either in the water or on the bike, PLUS two physio appts per week, plus a massage, plus training the boys 3 days per week plus working saturday morning, plus trying to do some homework. its going to b a VERY busy time for miss jo