..err..even i cant interpret myself sometimes.. lol

..lol..you know youve had one too many..when someoneone says what???? about your typing..and even you cant intepret what you meant..double lol

..ok i should be chomping at the bit to go for a run..seriously..i dont know what was wrong with me today..if there was a prize for being the world's most unmotivated person, i would have taken it out by a mile!!!!!! yes i woke up with a sore knee(that may have been the massive heels i wore out yesterday..or maybe the fact i was contemplating hitting a squash ball up and down the wall today...yes i know i need to ask physio first..but im sure if i stick with 'wall' drills i will be allowed..no running lunges or anything ridiculous..just me and the four walls!!!!
anyway i also figured out that if i go today or tomorrow..it doesnt change how many runs i will have for the week..i think maybe that was the problem...

..anyway i decided since i was lazy bones etraordinaire i would go to gym and have a go on the bike..since i couldnt do a big bike session first time back anyway..
so i did 2mins standing and then 1 min sitting..very low resistance and being very very careful..id forgotten how much i actually like 'running' on the spinning bikes..whenever my joints are a bit sore i used to go fo a 'run' on the bike...so 20 mins all up...very slack...heart rate about 140 when standing,about 130 when seated..
OMG..i am soooooo bike unfit..didnt the quads and butt let me know about it for the first few minutes..there seemed to be a bit of.. 'oi whaddya think you're doing missy'

had a few false starts at the gym..started stretching, no water bottle,go buy one..start stretching again, skins on inside out..bugger,trot off and change them..so id been flashing what size i had been wearing..(lucky it was an S) finally get going..

and i blame sara's post for this..had the biggest souva craving today(which i indulged)..umm ok..maybe the milion wines last night had something to do with it
..so went shopping in smith street and bought a suit including skirt/pants, a couple of my other suits are just WAY too big..anyway i have now committed to staying at this size or smaller..im going do i buy the 10's which fit properly..or go the 12's in case im having an i feel fat day???(not that size 12 is fat..dont get me wrong but we all have days where we feel fatter than others)
the 12's really were too big in the butt tho.so i bought the smaller pants/skirt...not so with the top though, there isnt any size 10 top anwhere that is going to fit my ah err not so small girly bits..lol

so hanging out with the little people tonight(babysitting)..what a good sister i am... modest too it seems ;)

oh yeah ..and looking forward to going to flemington market with morsey runs tomorrow..rubs hands together..more ways to spend money..yay

..lazy arms

..yep thats right..lazy arms..they were wishy washy and lazy today..it felt like they had no strength..
went water running did the ladder session.with 30 sec rest between.. these were the hard efforts 1,2,3,4,5,4,3,2,1 then 2 mins rest..and i could have finished there but wanted to do an hour..couldnt face 20 mins steady(aka boring) so did the following 1,1,2,2,3,3,2,1, which basically took me to the hour..
i struggled with a capital 'S" today..i felt faint and just not into it..im sure some of my hard efforts were at about steady pace :( i got a bit more together as the session went on..but i wasnt sure why i just felt so blaaaaaaah today..seriously my arms could barely push against the water...

anyway its done now...

oh yeah..officially the last day of my leave today.. lucky i now have 2 weeks of holidays to get used to the idea of going back to work :)

oh yeah2: finally made a decision about the boy..yep..me making a decision..REALLY
i decided nada...since i didnt actually miss him,then there is no point..and i always say unless im happier or at least as happy with someone as without, hten i may as well be single... you know waiting for some lunatic guy..who may be able to put up with all my idiosynchrosies..yeah like im waiting....
besides im NOT going to conduct a relationship via email

off to have a few drinkies this arvo with the old school crew..so will prob be tiddly by 6pm...im a shocker!!!

..no vanity did not prevail

.. i got as close to a real run as i have been since the ..Incident of hte compressed nerve..shhhhhh dont say it too loud..it might start thinking its time to be compressed again...

anyway my physio had said 35 mins runnning today..but i also asked if i could run on harder surfaces which she said yes to ..but didnt cut the distance..but me being the reformed get back to runnning runnner i am decided to make it shorter... 2 lots of ten minutes to start i think..
so i went to the Tan..all nervous and excited yet quite calm(you may remember the tan session i ran last time was the precursor to the sciatica type icident)
anyway ran the following..not fast ..no striding out..jusr keeping a reasonable,light,cadence
1.827 km 10:11 so 5:34 min/km
1.827 km 9:46 so 5:21 min/km
so only 20 mins overall..felt very restrained..but the proof will be in the pudding tomorrow..i nervously await waking up!

now to the title..i told my 3year old niece i would come over and play 'nailpolish with her' which was all fine and good(she loved it) however i was unaware that she would be doing mine....and since i was going out straight from her house..i couldnt even redo without her knowing..so i had embarassingly bad nails tonight LOL so no vanity did not prevail ..i let my niece think she had a done a wonderful job

out to dinner tonight with the school folk..canneloni..no dessert..and then drove home..was tempted to drink more but didnt...good girl jojo

mouth still sore(quite sore now) but slowly getting better..although the accidental headbutt kiss from my niece just about killed me... s'ok jojo not too bad... was her response

..jojo becomes an icicle.. brrrrrrr

..you know those runs where your mind is telling you not to do it the WHOLE time.. and then after about 40 mins, your mind and body realise that youre not backing down so it just has to suck it up and get on with it..well thats hte run i had today..except in water
OMG..i struggled today..firstly i tried to go indoor for a swim..forgot it was shut...derr..so i decided to tuff it out....OUTDOORS.... when i say it was cold...f&$K it was cold..even while running
i managed to last the 60 minutes..and plththththt to the person making a comment on wearing a hat in the pool..i dont like rain in my eyes ....OK
Im such a sooky la-la... LOL

anyway i spent a fair bit of time thinking about my bad mood the other day and why i couldnt kick it like usual...and then it hit me.. i would usually go do an hour run and i couldnt.. because i dont like being that person,,,we get a choice in how we react to some things and i dont like behaving like im a baby

am way sore after the massage yesterday...good sore though..i think its worst in the glute medius(cos glute max doesnt fire fast enough)

feel so relaxed after the water work..oh yeah and get to run on the Tan tomorrow..woo hoo

ummmmmmm. still trying to decide what to do about the 'email boy' well if he called.. but he emailed me today.. and started it with ..joanne... i have told him how much i hate being called joanne.. you cant organise your relationships with email.. stupid boy.... anyway...i still dont know what to do if he calls..im not replying to any such stupid email..SERIOUSLY... its not like ive even missed him.. but it is nice to have some intimacy
LOL..no wonder im single... Im so hard to please

anyway i think im going to buy a bzillion vegies..that what i really feel like..mmmmmm
weight today was 61.9 so close to the 61.5 pre injury weight..but no real weight loss last 2 weeks..but it wouldnt surprise me if im retaining a little weight at the mo..given my horrible mood the other day..but i dont really/never really know

oh yeah.. and happy to say i am happy happy jojo :) mwah mwah

..um..was that really me yesterday????

...ummmm..what a grumpy little cow i was yesterday.. id like to say some alien typed that yesterday but nope that was just me in all my ingloriousness...
..lol..its hard work being in a bad mood like that..I was exhausted today..
anyway shakes that ff.. today was much better..glute pain had subsided smewhat and i had a meeting at my new schoool to discuss classes..there are certainly some challenges there..
..and then i had a sports massage with Em's MT.. She was extremely good..Some people will know her as CV from ausrun... she certainly gets right in there.. i was obviously tight in lots of places(especially since this was my 2nd ever massage) and apparently the glute max is not firing quickly enough which is why glute medius is doing so much work...back is tight as anything..and well the calves..ouchies..
..and apparently i have some bits,..indicative of shin splints..but i think they are from long ago..i used to get sore shins if i ran consecutive days or walked really fast without warming up..havent had those pains for a long time...but it was a little surprising none the less..and makes me conscious f it..

my physio has just sent me a new program for next two weeks..but told me she thinks i have overdone it last two weeks...(i followed her instructions though ???) anyway im not sure if she's going to allow me to run coliban or not now... as there is NO mention of going onto harder surfaces.. :(

so today is HEAPS better day for little miss jo... sorry to anyway who had to read that hideously foulmooded version of myself yesterday lol

EM: have a great time in Queensland
SARA: keep the boys on their toes in Sydney ;)

..miserable git

..yep..that would be me! i have spent the day in a horribly mopey moood..usually i snap out of a mood like this within an hour or so but it has just dragged on and on and on...i need a serious kick up the butt...
speaking of which..still have a pain in the glute whihch is definitely worrying me..
..my back is not feeling great today..
..i decided id better not run as.. well it would be asking for trouble. didnt even go water running...and its unlikely i will run tomorrow too..
..i spent about 5 hours cleaning and re-organising my room...im sure the picking up heavyish items helped..
anyway short and not so sweet today

ho hum its just one of those... i feel hideous..all my family are deserting me,my mouth is aching,my back hurts,i cant run, i feel like im going to cry and the whole stupid woe is me mood..you know the one LOL

itll be better tomorrow

..jojo pats her belly..mmm..mmm

mmm mmm.. guess who decided it was time to try solids..I had a roast tonight.. well to be truthful the drunkeness overtook me last night and i decided that i could bite and not have to chew hungry jacks onion rings nor chips...
and so i was happily busy chowing down..it took me quite some time to realise i had got on the wrong tram...derr fred.. so had to get off and pay for a cab anyway...LOL

..how did i pull up...hmmmmm.can i lie and say absolutely fantastically..not a worry in the world??? i could but it would be just that..a lie..
i woke up with a very sore glute..which some might recall was the start of the sciatica type issues..in exactly the same spot...except in the opposite leg..
..so im not completely all over the shop about it..but i am a tad concerned..so i did NOTHING today..and if sore at all wont run tomorrow either... so i am mildly concerned but trying not to be and trying to be rational(but failing at times)

..sara i knew that vague comment about discussion topic would drive you spare...LOL.. use your imagination!!!!!

thanks for all the well wishes from everyone..tony, Em(of course) , stu, duckgirl, sara, kathryn and andrew..and any one i have missed... it has been really appreciated..you dont know how much...without some of those nice words i would have been positively miserable over the last 11 weeks
also a special thanks to Em..whose pool sessions..and company have made life sooooo much more bearable..HUGS

a few people have said what a miserable time ive had over my time of leave..not true..i count all of my blessings..and they are many!! so under no circumstance should anyone give me the ..pooor jo thing..its just not on!

so im still a very contented (albeit sore-jawed) little pussycat.. im lucky ..all of my pain is temporary..(i even had one night two nights ago when i didnt wake upfrom the painful mouth)
brothers bday today..so spent an enjoyable night with the family..very lucky to have siblings i would consider friends..big pit that both may be moving overseas now..but if its good for them..then its the right thing to do :(